OMG! This computer is so slow I could run faster than it can! And that's with my painful chest where I'm needing to have oxygen again :( to relieve the cough & breathlessness. This means that I'm going to have to have oxygen in Scotland -- & there was me thinking I'd got off it after I hadn't had any for 10 days.I have managed to kick off 3 of my Gabapentin doses so I now only have 3 a day as opposed to 6. They are the ones that have the side-effect of weight gain, I think it's the gabapentin that's caused me to put on a stone & a half in weight in 6 months.The less weight I'm carrying, the better it is for me. & I suffer less pain etc. Hopefully the pure Scottish air will do my poorly chest a bit of good . We're up in the Cairngorms near to Balmoral - the walk around Balmoral is so refreshing (it might be exhausting for Geoff pushing me in the wheelchair...). At least we have my Disabled Parking Badge which is okay to use in Scotland, we can now park nearby to a venue etc.
I can't get the suitcase down yet as Rosie gets paranoid when she seesit and looks at mt with her woebegone face as if to say 'don't leave me mummy'. so packing happens the day before we go.
Geoff managed to get through to Gatwick Airport yesterday and he's organised for us (me & mum) to have transport within the airport - I'd never get to the departure gate otherwise. It's sorted at Aberdeen too & on the return journey. That will certainly make my life more comfortable. We also have a wheelchair hire organised for the week, hired from the Red Cross.
We're going up to Lakeside shopping centre on Saturday vto collect Alice's bridesmaid's dress, exchange Kelly's dress for a larger size, hunt down bridesmaid's headgear & possibly the shoes, and we're looking around for my 'mother-of-the-bride outfit (and, no, I'm not wearing a hat). I belong to 'Shopmobility' and I rang earlier in the week and have managed to bag the motorised scooter. It saves on the poor old boy having to push me around. So, I'm really looking forward to going.
I'm having my club night tonight. It's quite a simple technique, but it's effective. I have slowed down on my layout turnover this month as I haven't been too good illness-wise. Monday I felt so ill I didn't know what to do with myself. Jenny's partner, Carl, was working on his car on our driveway and he came upstairs to see if I wanted anything. Apparently he took ojust wanted a cuddle for reassurance.ne look at me & phoned Jen to get up here asap. Bless him. I just felt like I couldn't hold my head up nor keep my eyes open.I feel a bit better now but I still have a pain in my chest and this irritating revolting cough. The pain levels have gone up and my mobility has gone right down.When people try to advise me haven't got a clue at just how debilitating Fibromyalgia is. I can't just 'take a walk round the block with the dog'I've found out who to ignore and to tell people how I'm feeling rather than just saying I'm okay. I've had someone say to me that I can't be that bad if I scrapbook!!
I think that's all for now...
Bye Bye!!
Tuesday 10 April 2007
Sunny Tuesday
It's been a simply beautiful Easter weather-wise. We went to Hever Castle yesterday. It's so near, just about 20 minutes' drive away, but we don't appreciate it. I took masses of photos with my new camera, including 'moving water' for the photography challenge on UK scrappers forum, but I think I might have missed the deadline. Oh, well, it was a good experience. O
My mum has been in a dreadful state all over the Easter weekend. On Friday, when she was coming home from her [voluntary] shift at the Hospice, she saw this cyclist weaving in & out of traffic & then peddling very fast in the middle of the road. Well, mum had to get to the right lane in the road, went round him but he didn't look & pulled out again & clipped my mum's car & came off. He got straight up again & was shouting about drivers & bikes, no injuries. Mum offered her details but he was too busy ranting with the people in the car behind mum. She was so upsdidn't sleep Friday night & then, when she came up on Saturday, she said that I 'wouldn't want to know her after what she'd done'. Even though the guy refused mum's details, I suggested she went / phoned the police just to inform them. They suggested that she took her documents in just to be sure. Then yesterday she found a 'compliments' slip through her door from the police saying that her details had been passed to the cyclist & the cyclist's details were on this slip too. I rang her on my mobile yesterday while I was waiting for the kids & Geoff to come out of the maze (couldn't get my scooter through). She is still in a real state & is scraed stiff of being sued. No matter how many times people have said that he was just as much in the wrong as he didn't make any effort to slow down & was oblivient of any traffic around him as he was riding very erratically, she still fears being taken to court. She hasn't slept & is so anxious & fear for her blood pressure. Has anyone out there who reads this blog had any such experience with a cyclist, or that can advise what I can say to mum or what else she could do other than what she has done already? She informed the police within 24 hours and offered her details at the scene even though the bloke seemed more interested in running drivers ddown (pardon the pun).She's on her own since dad died so she hasn't got someone who can take it off her shoulders. She did evertything I can think of. I did mention the Police's support network, maybe they could help.
I'm closing down now as I fear of losing it completely.
My mum has been in a dreadful state all over the Easter weekend. On Friday, when she was coming home from her [voluntary] shift at the Hospice, she saw this cyclist weaving in & out of traffic & then peddling very fast in the middle of the road. Well, mum had to get to the right lane in the road, went round him but he didn't look & pulled out again & clipped my mum's car & came off. He got straight up again & was shouting about drivers & bikes, no injuries. Mum offered her details but he was too busy ranting with the people in the car behind mum. She was so upsdidn't sleep Friday night & then, when she came up on Saturday, she said that I 'wouldn't want to know her after what she'd done'. Even though the guy refused mum's details, I suggested she went / phoned the police just to inform them. They suggested that she took her documents in just to be sure. Then yesterday she found a 'compliments' slip through her door from the police saying that her details had been passed to the cyclist & the cyclist's details were on this slip too. I rang her on my mobile yesterday while I was waiting for the kids & Geoff to come out of the maze (couldn't get my scooter through). She is still in a real state & is scraed stiff of being sued. No matter how many times people have said that he was just as much in the wrong as he didn't make any effort to slow down & was oblivient of any traffic around him as he was riding very erratically, she still fears being taken to court. She hasn't slept & is so anxious & fear for her blood pressure. Has anyone out there who reads this blog had any such experience with a cyclist, or that can advise what I can say to mum or what else she could do other than what she has done already? She informed the police within 24 hours and offered her details at the scene even though the bloke seemed more interested in running drivers ddown (pardon the pun).She's on her own since dad died so she hasn't got someone who can take it off her shoulders. She did evertything I can think of. I did mention the Police's support network, maybe they could help.
I'm closing down now as I fear of losing it completely.
Sunny Tuesday
It's been a simply beautiful Easter weather-wise. We went to Hever Castle yesterday. It's so near, just about 20 minutes' drive away, but we don't appreciate it. I took masses of photos with my new camera, including 'moving water' for the photography challenge on UK scrappers forum, but I think I might have missed the deadline. Oh, well, it was a good experience. O
My mum has been in a dreadful state all over the Easter weekend. On Friday, when she was coming home from her [voluntary] shift at the Hospice, she saw this cyclist weaving in & out of traffic & then peddling very fast in the middle of the road. Well, mum had to get to the right lane in the road, went round him but he didn't look & pulled out again & clipped my mum's car & came off. He got straight up again & was shouting about drivers & bikes, no injuries. Mum offered her details but he was too busy ranting with the people in the car behind mum. She was so upsdidn't sleep Friday night & then, when she came up on Saturday, she said that I 'wouldn't want to know her after what she'd done'. Even though the guy refused mum's details, I suggested she went / phoned the police just to inform them. They suggested that she took her documents in just to be sure. Then yesterday she found a 'compliments' slip through her door from the police saying that her details had been passed to the cyclist & the cyclist's details were on this slip too. I rang her on my mobile yesterday while I was waiting for the kids & Geoff to come out of the maze (couldn't get my scooter through). She is still in a real state & is scraed stiff of being sued. No matter how many times people have said that he was just as much in the wrong as he didn't make any effort to slow down & was oblivient of any traffic around him as he was riding very erratically, she still fears being taken to court. She hasn't slept & is so anxious & fear for her blood pressure. Has anyone out there who reads this blog had any such experience with a cyclist, or that can advise what I can say to mum or what else she could do other than what she has done already? She informed the police within 24 hours and offered her details at the scene even though the bloke seemed more interested in running drivers ddown (pardon the pun).She's on her own since dad died so she hasn't got someone who can take it off her shoulders. She did evertything I can think of. I did mention the Police's support network, maybe they could help.
I'm closing down now as I fear of losing it completely.
My mum has been in a dreadful state all over the Easter weekend. On Friday, when she was coming home from her [voluntary] shift at the Hospice, she saw this cyclist weaving in & out of traffic & then peddling very fast in the middle of the road. Well, mum had to get to the right lane in the road, went round him but he didn't look & pulled out again & clipped my mum's car & came off. He got straight up again & was shouting about drivers & bikes, no injuries. Mum offered her details but he was too busy ranting with the people in the car behind mum. She was so upsdidn't sleep Friday night & then, when she came up on Saturday, she said that I 'wouldn't want to know her after what she'd done'. Even though the guy refused mum's details, I suggested she went / phoned the police just to inform them. They suggested that she took her documents in just to be sure. Then yesterday she found a 'compliments' slip through her door from the police saying that her details had been passed to the cyclist & the cyclist's details were on this slip too. I rang her on my mobile yesterday while I was waiting for the kids & Geoff to come out of the maze (couldn't get my scooter through). She is still in a real state & is scraed stiff of being sued. No matter how many times people have said that he was just as much in the wrong as he didn't make any effort to slow down & was oblivient of any traffic around him as he was riding very erratically, she still fears being taken to court. She hasn't slept & is so anxious & fear for her blood pressure. Has anyone out there who reads this blog had any such experience with a cyclist, or that can advise what I can say to mum or what else she could do other than what she has done already? She informed the police within 24 hours and offered her details at the scene even though the bloke seemed more interested in running drivers ddown (pardon the pun).She's on her own since dad died so she hasn't got someone who can take it off her shoulders. She did evertything I can think of. I did mention the Police's support network, maybe they could help.
I'm closing down now as I fear of losing it completely.
Sunny Tuesday
It's been a simply beautiful Easter weather-wise. We went to Hever Castle yesterday. It's so near, just about 20 minutes' drive away, but we don't appreciate it. I took masses of photos with my new camera, including 'moving water' for the photography challenge on UK scrappers forum, but I think I might have missed the deadline. Oh, well, it was a good experience. O
My mum has been in a dreadful state all over the Easter weekend. On Friday, when she was coming home from her [voluntary] shift at the Hospice, she saw this cyclist weaving in & out of traffic & then peddling very fast in the middle of the road. Well, mum had to get to the right lane in the road, went round him but he didn't look & pulled out again & clipped my mum's car & came off. He got straight up again & was shouting about drivers & bikes, no injuries. Mum offered her details but he was too busy ranting with the people in the car behind mum. She was so upsdidn't sleep Friday night & then, when she came up on Saturday, she said that I 'wouldn't want to know her after what she'd done'. Even though the guy refused mum's details, I suggested she went / phoned the police just to inform them. They suggested that she took her documents in just to be sure. Then yesterday she found a 'compliments' slip through her door from the police saying that her details had been passed to the cyclist & the cyclist's details were on this slip too. I rang her on my mobile yesterday while I was waiting for the kids & Geoff to come out of the maze (couldn't get my scooter through). She is still in a real state & is scraed stiff of being sued. No matter how many times people have said that he was just as much in the wrong as he didn't make any effort to slow down & was oblivient of any traffic around him as he was riding very erratically, she still fears being taken to court. She hasn't slept & is so anxious & fear for her blood pressure. Has anyone out there who reads this blog had any such experience with a cyclist, or that can advise what I can say to mum or what else she could do other than what she has done already? She informed the police within 24 hours and offered her details at the scene even though the bloke seemed more interested in running drivers ddown (pardon the pun).She's on her own since dad died so she hasn't got someone who can take it off her shoulders. She did evertything I can think of. I did mention the Police's support network, maybe they could help.
I'm closing down now as I fear of losing it completely.
My mum has been in a dreadful state all over the Easter weekend. On Friday, when she was coming home from her [voluntary] shift at the Hospice, she saw this cyclist weaving in & out of traffic & then peddling very fast in the middle of the road. Well, mum had to get to the right lane in the road, went round him but he didn't look & pulled out again & clipped my mum's car & came off. He got straight up again & was shouting about drivers & bikes, no injuries. Mum offered her details but he was too busy ranting with the people in the car behind mum. She was so upsdidn't sleep Friday night & then, when she came up on Saturday, she said that I 'wouldn't want to know her after what she'd done'. Even though the guy refused mum's details, I suggested she went / phoned the police just to inform them. They suggested that she took her documents in just to be sure. Then yesterday she found a 'compliments' slip through her door from the police saying that her details had been passed to the cyclist & the cyclist's details were on this slip too. I rang her on my mobile yesterday while I was waiting for the kids & Geoff to come out of the maze (couldn't get my scooter through). She is still in a real state & is scraed stiff of being sued. No matter how many times people have said that he was just as much in the wrong as he didn't make any effort to slow down & was oblivient of any traffic around him as he was riding very erratically, she still fears being taken to court. She hasn't slept & is so anxious & fear for her blood pressure. Has anyone out there who reads this blog had any such experience with a cyclist, or that can advise what I can say to mum or what else she could do other than what she has done already? She informed the police within 24 hours and offered her details at the scene even though the bloke seemed more interested in running drivers ddown (pardon the pun).She's on her own since dad died so she hasn't got someone who can take it off her shoulders. She did evertything I can think of. I did mention the Police's support network, maybe they could help.
I'm closing down now as I fear of losing it completely.
Sunny Tuesday
It's been a simply beautiful Easter weather-wise. We went to Hever Castle yesterday. It's so near, just about 20 minutes' drive away, but we don't appreciate it. I took masses of photos with my new camera, including 'moving water' for the photography challenge on UK scrappers forum, but I think I might have missed the deadline. Oh, well, it was a good experience. O
My mum has been in a dreadful state all over the Easter weekend. On Friday, when she was coming home from her [voluntary] shift at the Hospice, she saw this cyclist weaving in & out of traffic & then peddling very fast in the middle of the road. Well, mum had to get to the right lane in the road, went round him but he didn't look & pulled out again & clipped my mum's car & came off. He got straight up again & was shouting about drivers & bikes, no injuries. Mum offered her details but he was too busy ranting with the people in the car behind mum. She was so upsdidn't sleep Friday night & then, when she came up on Saturday, she said that I 'wouldn't want to know her after what she'd done'. Even though the guy refused mum's details, I suggested she went / phoned the police just to inform them. They suggested that she took her documents in just to be sure. Then yesterday she found a 'compliments' slip through her door from the police saying that her details had been passed to the cyclist & the cyclist's details were on this slip too. I rang her on my mobile yesterday while I was waiting for the kids & Geoff to come out of the maze (couldn't get my scooter through). She is still in a real state & is scraed stiff of being sued. No matter how many times people have said that he was just as much in the wrong as he didn't make any effort to slow down & was oblivient of any traffic around him as he was riding very erratically, she still fears being taken to court. She hasn't slept & is so anxious & fear for her blood pressure. Has anyone out there who reads this blog had any such experience with a cyclist, or that can advise what I can say to mum or what else she could do other than what she has done already? She informed the police within 24 hours and offered her details at the scene even though the bloke seemed more interested in running drivers ddown (pardon the pun).She's on her own since dad died so she hasn't got someone who can take it off her shoulders. She did evertything I can think of. I did mention the Police's support network, maybe they could help.
I'm closing down now as I fear of losing it completely.
My mum has been in a dreadful state all over the Easter weekend. On Friday, when she was coming home from her [voluntary] shift at the Hospice, she saw this cyclist weaving in & out of traffic & then peddling very fast in the middle of the road. Well, mum had to get to the right lane in the road, went round him but he didn't look & pulled out again & clipped my mum's car & came off. He got straight up again & was shouting about drivers & bikes, no injuries. Mum offered her details but he was too busy ranting with the people in the car behind mum. She was so upsdidn't sleep Friday night & then, when she came up on Saturday, she said that I 'wouldn't want to know her after what she'd done'. Even though the guy refused mum's details, I suggested she went / phoned the police just to inform them. They suggested that she took her documents in just to be sure. Then yesterday she found a 'compliments' slip through her door from the police saying that her details had been passed to the cyclist & the cyclist's details were on this slip too. I rang her on my mobile yesterday while I was waiting for the kids & Geoff to come out of the maze (couldn't get my scooter through). She is still in a real state & is scraed stiff of being sued. No matter how many times people have said that he was just as much in the wrong as he didn't make any effort to slow down & was oblivient of any traffic around him as he was riding very erratically, she still fears being taken to court. She hasn't slept & is so anxious & fear for her blood pressure. Has anyone out there who reads this blog had any such experience with a cyclist, or that can advise what I can say to mum or what else she could do other than what she has done already? She informed the police within 24 hours and offered her details at the scene even though the bloke seemed more interested in running drivers ddown (pardon the pun).She's on her own since dad died so she hasn't got someone who can take it off her shoulders. She did evertything I can think of. I did mention the Police's support network, maybe they could help.
I'm closing down now as I fear of losing it completely.
Sunny Tuesday
It's been a simply beautiful Easter weather-wise. We went to Hever Castle yesterday. It's so near, just about 20 minutes' drive away, but we don't appreciate it. I took masses of photos with my new camera, including 'moving water' for the photography challenge on UK scrappers forum, but I think I might have missed the deadline. Oh, well, it was a good experience. O
My mum has been in a dreadful state all over the Easter weekend. On Friday, when she was coming home from her [voluntary] shift at the Hospice, she saw this cyclist weaving in & out of traffic & then peddling very fast in the middle of the road. Well, mum had to get to the right lane in the road, went round him but he didn't look & pulled out again & clipped my mum's car & came off. He got straight up again & was shouting about drivers & bikes, no injuries. Mum offered her details but he was too busy ranting with the people in the car behind mum. She was so upsdidn't sleep Friday night & then, when she came up on Saturday, she said that I 'wouldn't want to know her after what she'd done'. Even though the guy refused mum's details, I suggested she went / phoned the police just to inform them. They suggested that she took her documents in just to be sure. Then yesterday she found a 'compliments' slip through her door from the police saying that her details had been passed to the cyclist & the cyclist's details were on this slip too. I rang her on my mobile yesterday while I was waiting for the kids & Geoff to come out of the maze (couldn't get my scooter through). She is still in a real state & is scraed stiff of being sued. No matter how many times people have said that he was just as much in the wrong as he didn't make any effort to slow down & was oblivient of any traffic around him as he was riding very erratically, she still fears being taken to court. She hasn't slept & is so anxious & fear for her blood pressure. Has anyone out there who reads this blog had any such experience with a cyclist, or that can advise what I can say to mum or what else she could do other than what she has done already? She informed the police within 24 hours and offered her details at the scene even though the bloke seemed more interested in running drivers ddown (pardon the pun).She's on her own since dad died so she hasn't got someone who can take it off her shoulders. She did evertything I can think of. I did mention the Police's support network, maybe they could help.
I'm closing down now as I fear of losing it completely.
My mum has been in a dreadful state all over the Easter weekend. On Friday, when she was coming home from her [voluntary] shift at the Hospice, she saw this cyclist weaving in & out of traffic & then peddling very fast in the middle of the road. Well, mum had to get to the right lane in the road, went round him but he didn't look & pulled out again & clipped my mum's car & came off. He got straight up again & was shouting about drivers & bikes, no injuries. Mum offered her details but he was too busy ranting with the people in the car behind mum. She was so upsdidn't sleep Friday night & then, when she came up on Saturday, she said that I 'wouldn't want to know her after what she'd done'. Even though the guy refused mum's details, I suggested she went / phoned the police just to inform them. They suggested that she took her documents in just to be sure. Then yesterday she found a 'compliments' slip through her door from the police saying that her details had been passed to the cyclist & the cyclist's details were on this slip too. I rang her on my mobile yesterday while I was waiting for the kids & Geoff to come out of the maze (couldn't get my scooter through). She is still in a real state & is scraed stiff of being sued. No matter how many times people have said that he was just as much in the wrong as he didn't make any effort to slow down & was oblivient of any traffic around him as he was riding very erratically, she still fears being taken to court. She hasn't slept & is so anxious & fear for her blood pressure. Has anyone out there who reads this blog had any such experience with a cyclist, or that can advise what I can say to mum or what else she could do other than what she has done already? She informed the police within 24 hours and offered her details at the scene even though the bloke seemed more interested in running drivers ddown (pardon the pun).She's on her own since dad died so she hasn't got someone who can take it off her shoulders. She did evertything I can think of. I did mention the Police's support network, maybe they could help.
I'm closing down now as I fear of losing it completely.
Sunny Tuesday
It's been a simply beautiful Easter weather-wise. We went to Hever Castle yesterday. It's so near, just about 20 minutes' drive away, but we don't appreciate it. I took masses of photos with my new camera, including 'moving water' for the photography challenge on UK scrappers forum, but I think I might have missed the deadline. Oh, well, it was a good experience. O
My mum has been in a dreadful state all over the Easter weekend. On Friday, when she was coming home from her [voluntary] shift at the Hospice, she saw this cyclist weaving in & out of traffic & then peddling very fast in the middle of the road. Well, mum had to get to the right lane in the road, went round him but he didn't look & pulled out again & clipped my mum's car & came off. He got straight up again & was shouting about drivers & bikes, no injuries. Mum offered her details but he was too busy ranting with the people in the car behind mum. She was so upsdidn't sleep Friday night & then, when she came up on Saturday, she said that I 'wouldn't want to know her after what she'd done'. Even though the guy refused mum's details, I suggested she went / phoned the police just to inform them. They suggested that she took her documents in just to be sure. Then yesterday she found a 'compliments' slip through her door from the police saying that her details had been passed to the cyclist & the cyclist's details were on this slip too. I rang her on my mobile yesterday while I was waiting for the kids & Geoff to come out of the maze (couldn't get my scooter through). She is still in a real state & is scraed stiff of being sued. No matter how many times people have said that he was just as much in the wrong as he didn't make any effort to slow down & was oblivient of any traffic around him as he was riding very erratically, she still fears being taken to court. She hasn't slept & is so anxious & fear for her blood pressure. Has anyone out there who reads this blog had any such experience with a cyclist, or that can advise what I can say to mum or what else she could do other than what she has done already? She informed the police within 24 hours and offered her details at the scene even though the bloke seemed more interested in running drivers ddown (pardon the pun).She's on her own since dad died so she hasn't got someone who can take it off her shoulders. She did evertything I can think of. I did mention the Police's support network, maybe they could help.
I'm closing down now as I fear of losing it completely.
My mum has been in a dreadful state all over the Easter weekend. On Friday, when she was coming home from her [voluntary] shift at the Hospice, she saw this cyclist weaving in & out of traffic & then peddling very fast in the middle of the road. Well, mum had to get to the right lane in the road, went round him but he didn't look & pulled out again & clipped my mum's car & came off. He got straight up again & was shouting about drivers & bikes, no injuries. Mum offered her details but he was too busy ranting with the people in the car behind mum. She was so upsdidn't sleep Friday night & then, when she came up on Saturday, she said that I 'wouldn't want to know her after what she'd done'. Even though the guy refused mum's details, I suggested she went / phoned the police just to inform them. They suggested that she took her documents in just to be sure. Then yesterday she found a 'compliments' slip through her door from the police saying that her details had been passed to the cyclist & the cyclist's details were on this slip too. I rang her on my mobile yesterday while I was waiting for the kids & Geoff to come out of the maze (couldn't get my scooter through). She is still in a real state & is scraed stiff of being sued. No matter how many times people have said that he was just as much in the wrong as he didn't make any effort to slow down & was oblivient of any traffic around him as he was riding very erratically, she still fears being taken to court. She hasn't slept & is so anxious & fear for her blood pressure. Has anyone out there who reads this blog had any such experience with a cyclist, or that can advise what I can say to mum or what else she could do other than what she has done already? She informed the police within 24 hours and offered her details at the scene even though the bloke seemed more interested in running drivers ddown (pardon the pun).She's on her own since dad died so she hasn't got someone who can take it off her shoulders. She did evertything I can think of. I did mention the Police's support network, maybe they could help.
I'm closing down now as I fear of losing it completely.
Sunny Tuesday
It's been a simply beautiful Easter weather-wise. We went to Hever Castle yesterday. It's so near, just about 20 minutes' drive away, but we don't appreciate it. I took masses of photos with my new camera, including 'moving water' for the photography challenge on UK scrappers forum, but I think I might have missed the deadline. Oh, well, it was a good experience. O
My mum has been in a dreadful state all over the Easter weekend. On Friday, when she was coming home from her [voluntary] shift at the Hospice, she saw this cyclist weaving in & out of traffic & then peddling very fast in the middle of the road. Well, mum had to get to the right lane in the road, went round him but he didn't look & pulled out again & clipped my mum's car & came off. He got straight up again & was shouting about drivers & bikes, no injuries. Mum offered her details but he was too busy ranting with the people in the car behind mum. She was so upsdidn't sleep Friday night & then, when she came up on Saturday, she said that I 'wouldn't want to know her after what she'd done'. Even though the guy refused mum's details, I suggested she went / phoned the police just to inform them. They suggested that she took her documents in just to be sure. Then yesterday she found a 'compliments' slip through her door from the police saying that her details had been passed to the cyclist & the cyclist's details were on this slip too. I rang her on my mobile yesterday while I was waiting for the kids & Geoff to come out of the maze (couldn't get my scooter through). She is still in a real state & is scraed stiff of being sued. No matter how many times people have said that he was just as much in the wrong as he didn't make any effort to slow down & was oblivient of any traffic around him as he was riding very erratically, she still fears being taken to court. She hasn't slept & is so anxious & fear for her blood pressure. Has anyone out there who reads this blog had any such experience with a cyclist, or that can advise what I can say to mum or what else she could do other than what she has done already? She informed the police within 24 hours and offered her details at the scene even though the bloke seemed more interested in running drivers ddown (pardon the pun).She's on her own since dad died so she hasn't got someone who can take it off her shoulders. She did evertything I can think of. I did mention the Police's support network, maybe they could help.
I'm closing down now as I fear of losing it completely.
My mum has been in a dreadful state all over the Easter weekend. On Friday, when she was coming home from her [voluntary] shift at the Hospice, she saw this cyclist weaving in & out of traffic & then peddling very fast in the middle of the road. Well, mum had to get to the right lane in the road, went round him but he didn't look & pulled out again & clipped my mum's car & came off. He got straight up again & was shouting about drivers & bikes, no injuries. Mum offered her details but he was too busy ranting with the people in the car behind mum. She was so upsdidn't sleep Friday night & then, when she came up on Saturday, she said that I 'wouldn't want to know her after what she'd done'. Even though the guy refused mum's details, I suggested she went / phoned the police just to inform them. They suggested that she took her documents in just to be sure. Then yesterday she found a 'compliments' slip through her door from the police saying that her details had been passed to the cyclist & the cyclist's details were on this slip too. I rang her on my mobile yesterday while I was waiting for the kids & Geoff to come out of the maze (couldn't get my scooter through). She is still in a real state & is scraed stiff of being sued. No matter how many times people have said that he was just as much in the wrong as he didn't make any effort to slow down & was oblivient of any traffic around him as he was riding very erratically, she still fears being taken to court. She hasn't slept & is so anxious & fear for her blood pressure. Has anyone out there who reads this blog had any such experience with a cyclist, or that can advise what I can say to mum or what else she could do other than what she has done already? She informed the police within 24 hours and offered her details at the scene even though the bloke seemed more interested in running drivers ddown (pardon the pun).She's on her own since dad died so she hasn't got someone who can take it off her shoulders. She did evertything I can think of. I did mention the Police's support network, maybe they could help.
I'm closing down now as I fear of losing it completely.
Wednesday 4 April 2007
Oh, what a horrid day I've had today :(
I've had the worse day ever since I've had this illness, not with pain but with Geoff. I have to have lifts to the Drs as I'm on Morpine and also because I have such bad pains in my knees. It's been obvious that Geoff resents this for a long time. It appears that the love and care he felt for me after I had that illness in the Summer, has now worn off.
He basically told me to "get up off my fat a*** and do it myself".I explained to him that I shouldn't drive when I'm on Morphine - and his answer was "well everyone else does". You see, my husband has this ability to see into everyone elses lives & minds so he knows what every single person is doing at that moment... Anyway, I said it's only his dad who drinks a bottle of whiskey a day on top of Warfarin & blood pressure tablets - the same man who called me a witch and Geoff never backed me up.
I had another appointment to see a Dras I've been coughing again and... I won't go into details. Anyway, this appointment was at 10.50 when my blood test was at 9.10am. I said I'd be happy to sit & wait in the waiting room between appointments and call him when I came out. He then started to blast on at me, treating me like a childand then screeched to a halt, turned round and dumped me back at home.
I rang my mum, who said she could take me to Dr tomorrow but not today. Then she went on that she didn't wanted to get involved and said that she feels uncomfortable when he's around as she feels as though he's 'tutting' at her. I said that that's what he does to me all the time, as well as rolling his eyes over the top of his head witha grimace on his face. So she advises me that we need to get therapy.. well that would go down well (his mum always looked on people who needed therapy as weak), and he'd refused to even talk to the Gp saying there was no point.
The last thing mum said was that I should ring Pat (Rectors wife) and talk to her. Geoff puts in so much time at the church that I feel he does what he does there just to getaway from me. He hates me, he doesn't have to say it, butI'm not having him put my mums & my relationship in jeopardy especially as we've got so close recently.
So, with appointments cancelled with me crying my guts up to the lovely receptionist, I promptly went to my scrapbookking albums and took out the 2 layouts of him and ripped them into shreds. I couldn't bear the idea of facing all the sentiments I'd included as they are untrue. I feel as if I'm married to his (late) mother, as he seems to be develping the same traits she had.Especially the bit about knowing what everyone else is doing / does.
Then I went to bed, taking 2 hot wheat-bags & a hot drink. I then took a huge slugg of my liquid Morphine and tucked down in bed with my little dog. I ignored all phone calls because I wanted to.
I've Emailed Gerald, the Rector, and told him that I was giving up the notice sheet because I'm fed up with people moaning that items have / haven't gone in, that the article had wrong date, blah, blah, blah. So, doing the notice sheet just adds fuel to the fire in my struggle with my faith.
I've also asked him that I give up doing the CRB (Criminal Records for children's workers) for the whole parish as geoff insists on poking his nose in as he knows everything about that too and says I'm doing it all wrong.- OMG! He's an Einstein!! Anyway, as I said to Gerald, the CRB has caused more rows between us than anything else in our 33 year relationship, how trivial is that...
He came home and acted as if nothing had happened in the morning - he always does that. Up at the church everybody protects him & makes excuses for him -- it's as if I'm putting this illness on.. oh yeah, loss of independance, personal & monetary, loss of career, and loss of being able to be mobile - I can't even take the dog out for a walk & no-one will offer to do it for me either.
Carried on from previous day as computer acting up..
Geoff hadmade an appointment for me to see a Dr yesterday & I saw a Dr I hadn't seen before & she was the best person ever for me to see at this bad time. She is a committed Christian & she goes to our church! What a coincidence! She goes to the evening service as she prefers the 'no frills' kind of service.Anyway, she was so comforting, listened to everything I said and made suggestions but didn't push me. Anyway, physically I've got yet another chest infection. She Ummed & aahed for a while because I mentioned that there was fresh blood in the 'muck' but I said that the pain was no way near the pain I had when I had the PEs, so she took my word & I'm now on yet another load of anti-b's....
Regarding the issues of Geoff & his attitude he's developed against she said I didn't have to do anything I didn't feel like doing. Regarding my 'loss of faith' she assured me that Jesus was still with me band he would always be, even if I didn't feel He was.
In the afternoon a friend rang to say that she was coming round and so did the Rectors wife. They were both very concerned about me as they had seen how bad I was on Sunday. I, personally, think that my mum had phoned Pat but she denied it. They both prayed for me.
So, I've given up the CRB resposibility, the notice sheet responsibility, I only go to church when I want to & if I didn't feel like going then I shouldn't be pushed.
Geoff's at the 'high church' of our parish doing the 3 stations of the cross for 3 hours so I'm left with the girlsHow exciting...
Jenny came round earlier & we ended up back at the beginning regarding hair & head gear for the the bridesmaids & she says that she wants them to have their hair straightened -- but the dresses have such beautiful detail which will be obscured, so rather pointless. She still maintains she's done everything for the wedding -- very funny -- she's done practically zilch. So, I'm stepping back & letting her get on with it & I'll be wearing the old clothes I've had for over 15 years which I wear for any event. The tradition is that the bmum goes with the bride to choose her dress (Jen went with her friend then rang Geoff to say she needed this dress paid for...)and then the bride should go with her mum to choose her outfit (I doubt if she could even be bothered). I'm so sick of her attitude. I'm fed up with her attitude. When I told her I'd got, yet another, chest infection, she said she'd got an itchy boob!!!!????
This blog is running all slow & I'm I'm running blind so I'll close now.
He basically told me to "get up off my fat a*** and do it myself".I explained to him that I shouldn't drive when I'm on Morphine - and his answer was "well everyone else does". You see, my husband has this ability to see into everyone elses lives & minds so he knows what every single person is doing at that moment... Anyway, I said it's only his dad who drinks a bottle of whiskey a day on top of Warfarin & blood pressure tablets - the same man who called me a witch and Geoff never backed me up.
I had another appointment to see a Dras I've been coughing again and... I won't go into details. Anyway, this appointment was at 10.50 when my blood test was at 9.10am. I said I'd be happy to sit & wait in the waiting room between appointments and call him when I came out. He then started to blast on at me, treating me like a childand then screeched to a halt, turned round and dumped me back at home.
I rang my mum, who said she could take me to Dr tomorrow but not today. Then she went on that she didn't wanted to get involved and said that she feels uncomfortable when he's around as she feels as though he's 'tutting' at her. I said that that's what he does to me all the time, as well as rolling his eyes over the top of his head witha grimace on his face. So she advises me that we need to get therapy.. well that would go down well (his mum always looked on people who needed therapy as weak), and he'd refused to even talk to the Gp saying there was no point.
The last thing mum said was that I should ring Pat (Rectors wife) and talk to her. Geoff puts in so much time at the church that I feel he does what he does there just to getaway from me. He hates me, he doesn't have to say it, butI'm not having him put my mums & my relationship in jeopardy especially as we've got so close recently.
So, with appointments cancelled with me crying my guts up to the lovely receptionist, I promptly went to my scrapbookking albums and took out the 2 layouts of him and ripped them into shreds. I couldn't bear the idea of facing all the sentiments I'd included as they are untrue. I feel as if I'm married to his (late) mother, as he seems to be develping the same traits she had.Especially the bit about knowing what everyone else is doing / does.
Then I went to bed, taking 2 hot wheat-bags & a hot drink. I then took a huge slugg of my liquid Morphine and tucked down in bed with my little dog. I ignored all phone calls because I wanted to.
I've Emailed Gerald, the Rector, and told him that I was giving up the notice sheet because I'm fed up with people moaning that items have / haven't gone in, that the article had wrong date, blah, blah, blah. So, doing the notice sheet just adds fuel to the fire in my struggle with my faith.
I've also asked him that I give up doing the CRB (Criminal Records for children's workers) for the whole parish as geoff insists on poking his nose in as he knows everything about that too and says I'm doing it all wrong.- OMG! He's an Einstein!! Anyway, as I said to Gerald, the CRB has caused more rows between us than anything else in our 33 year relationship, how trivial is that...
He came home and acted as if nothing had happened in the morning - he always does that. Up at the church everybody protects him & makes excuses for him -- it's as if I'm putting this illness on.. oh yeah, loss of independance, personal & monetary, loss of career, and loss of being able to be mobile - I can't even take the dog out for a walk & no-one will offer to do it for me either.
Carried on from previous day as computer acting up..
Geoff hadmade an appointment for me to see a Dr yesterday & I saw a Dr I hadn't seen before & she was the best person ever for me to see at this bad time. She is a committed Christian & she goes to our church! What a coincidence! She goes to the evening service as she prefers the 'no frills' kind of service.Anyway, she was so comforting, listened to everything I said and made suggestions but didn't push me. Anyway, physically I've got yet another chest infection. She Ummed & aahed for a while because I mentioned that there was fresh blood in the 'muck' but I said that the pain was no way near the pain I had when I had the PEs, so she took my word & I'm now on yet another load of anti-b's....
Regarding the issues of Geoff & his attitude he's developed against she said I didn't have to do anything I didn't feel like doing. Regarding my 'loss of faith' she assured me that Jesus was still with me band he would always be, even if I didn't feel He was.
In the afternoon a friend rang to say that she was coming round and so did the Rectors wife. They were both very concerned about me as they had seen how bad I was on Sunday. I, personally, think that my mum had phoned Pat but she denied it. They both prayed for me.
So, I've given up the CRB resposibility, the notice sheet responsibility, I only go to church when I want to & if I didn't feel like going then I shouldn't be pushed.
Geoff's at the 'high church' of our parish doing the 3 stations of the cross for 3 hours so I'm left with the girlsHow exciting...
Jenny came round earlier & we ended up back at the beginning regarding hair & head gear for the the bridesmaids & she says that she wants them to have their hair straightened -- but the dresses have such beautiful detail which will be obscured, so rather pointless. She still maintains she's done everything for the wedding -- very funny -- she's done practically zilch. So, I'm stepping back & letting her get on with it & I'll be wearing the old clothes I've had for over 15 years which I wear for any event. The tradition is that the bmum goes with the bride to choose her dress (Jen went with her friend then rang Geoff to say she needed this dress paid for...)and then the bride should go with her mum to choose her outfit (I doubt if she could even be bothered). I'm so sick of her attitude. I'm fed up with her attitude. When I told her I'd got, yet another, chest infection, she said she'd got an itchy boob!!!!????
This blog is running all slow & I'm I'm running blind so I'll close now.
Tuesday 3 April 2007
Sorry I've been a bit behind with my blog lately but I have painful joints in my fingers, so I have to type on the pads of my fingers, and I'm brewing up another chest infection. I hope it doesn't develop into too much...
We're off to Scotland in 3 weeks' time. I have managed to sort out the wheelchair hire but I still need to discover how to book the airport "buggy" which takes people who can't manage the walk to the gate where their plane is. I'll never manage it, the walk.
Also, I need to phone BHS at Lakeside about the Bridesmaid's dresses, presuming my daughter hasn't done it herself. We need one adult dress changed by size and we are waiting on my youngest's dress. They were meant to have phoned us but they haven't and the 28 days has passed. So, I'm going to make the most of the free time I have, thanks to the fact my 2 youngest are staying at my eldest daughter's on a "sleep-over". My aim is to do all that plus 2 challenge layouts I have to do for my team on UKS.
I promise I'll do a proper blog tomorrow, I promise.
Nite-nite!!
We're off to Scotland in 3 weeks' time. I have managed to sort out the wheelchair hire but I still need to discover how to book the airport "buggy" which takes people who can't manage the walk to the gate where their plane is. I'll never manage it, the walk.
Also, I need to phone BHS at Lakeside about the Bridesmaid's dresses, presuming my daughter hasn't done it herself. We need one adult dress changed by size and we are waiting on my youngest's dress. They were meant to have phoned us but they haven't and the 28 days has passed. So, I'm going to make the most of the free time I have, thanks to the fact my 2 youngest are staying at my eldest daughter's on a "sleep-over". My aim is to do all that plus 2 challenge layouts I have to do for my team on UKS.
I promise I'll do a proper blog tomorrow, I promise.
Nite-nite!!
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